No, I Didn’t Forget I Had a Blog

It is laughable how terrible I’ve been at updating this thing.

I’ve been stepping away from using FB more and more ever since I rejoined last year after close to a 9 month hiatus. It just sucks. I’ve had to hide so many people now: the majority of my extreme right-wing friends — the ones who keep posting about how gun control is the same as “giving our rights away” (complete effing nonsense); the ones who keep posting about Rodan & Fields/Plexus/stupid ass diets that don’t work; the ones who keep posting pictures of their half-naked bodies in an attempt to get compliments but who claim modesty and humility (EITHER STOP DOING THIS OR JUST CALL IT WHAT IT IS); the ones who go on just to start fights with anyone who doesn’t 100% agree with their political views.

This is just exhausting and no longer fun to look at. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I miss the days when it was just all weddings and babies and football posts.

So instead, I’ve been living my life on Instagram and/or offline as fully as I can. We’ve been having so much fun as a couple lately, ever since NYE (WHICH WAS 3 MONTHS AGO) and I don’t see this train stopping anytime soon. Life has been busy, as per usual, what with my full time job, 2 classes that I teach Monday and Wednesday evenings, supervising 3 part-time student employees, completing my Wellness Coaching certification, and getting ready to hire a full-time employee whom I will be supervising starting this summer. Whew.

We’ve been busy on the weekends living it up in FL, which has included the purchase of a new sectional couch (“HELL YES!” says my back), some pool days during an unusually hot February, a Beer and Bacon Fest, an extremely awesome day of surprises for Timmy’s 35th birthday which included a wine making class and an escape room (which we won with only 38 seconds left on the clock!), Phantom of the Opera tickets (where I def cried), a quick trip to Miami that resulted in no pool days but 1 long spa day for me while Timmy worked a conference, and lots of trips to Disney World.

I’ve hit Disney 3 times since January (which as you know is my favorite place on earth, and no, I won’t apologize for it). It actually comes in handy when your family comes to town for spring break and you’ve got the skinny on how to plan out your days and paths at any given Disney park (you’re welcome familia). Which is exactly what happened last week, my first spring break I’ve taken off in 5 years.

God that was fun. I couldn’t wait to see Disney through my nieces’ eyes, the magic of it all. What I didn’t expect was their willingness to wait in 2+ hour lines which we didn’t do because eff that. But all in all, we hit every ride (almost) and the whole family had the best time ever. It was also maybe the fastest week in the history of ever.

The one thing I’ve been struggling with since last October is my chronic, never ending, mind-erasing back pain. Around the time I got rid of my walking boot after my bunionectomy last August, my back decided to go haywire and destroy my emotional stability. I couldn’t do anything without severe pain that would take my breath away for nearly 5 months.

I decided after my last facet injections in January didn’t work that I would try anything, and I meant ANYTHING. There have been a few days at the beginning of this year where I just couldn’t take it anymore. Timmy would have to help me get up from a sitting or lying down position or pick something off the floor or help me put socks/pants on. I was immobile many, many days and hysterically sad about it the other days. I broke down, cried nonstop, and fell into a hole of despair and hopelessness that my pain would get any better, that I could have a normal life, that I would ever be pain-free.

In short, I was completely miserable.

I got an epidural in February which reduced my pain from super crazy intense to a dull 24-hour bother. I started going to cryotherapy, which at the time I thought helped, but I haven’t gone in about a month and I feel no difference (= it was probably mentally helpful). It is as cold as you think, if not colder, and every time my legs would turn a bright lobster-shade of red, and it hurt the skin on my thighs like whoa. If that’s the beginning stages of hypothermia, then I have a new respect for people who go hiking in crazy cold places.

I started seeing a chiropractor (which I still believe that the adjustments are nonsense) but the TENS treatment, massage, ultrasound and physical therapy 3x/week have been making a difference. I’ve only worked out once since my injection because I’m terrified to do so. The last few times I worked out in January, my lower back muscles seized up and I was immobile the rest of the day. So I’m doing things at a slower pace, trying to remind myself to slow down and be patient (which is my opposite nature, so you can see how this would be difficult for me to do).

I should be released from physical therapy this week, so wish me luck as I try to regain a new sense of normalcy and control over my life. I now have a standing desk at work, and that’s been a game changer. Help me stay patient and calm as I try to integrate exercise back into my life.

That’s all for now. There are still some HUGE changes in my life on the horizon, so stay tuned for all the insanity that will start to happen around here in the next few weeks!

♥, VB

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Disney Cruise Memories

In December, my family and I went on our very first Disney cruise. There were laughs, there was anxiety, and there were amazing memories. Best of all, I got to see Frozen twice and Thor (part 2) in the on-board movie theatres. Since I never go to the movies anymore, that was a win for me.

We had planned this cruise over a year ago, and it seemed like FOREVER to get here, and wouldn’t you know, it was over likethat. What a bummer. But after 7 days of being on a cruise ship with lots and lots and LOTS of children, and crazily enough, not enough adults who wanted to party, Timmy and I were ready to return to our lives.

It was an easy enough 2 hour drive to Port Canaveral from Lakeland (this was pre-move). We checked in extremely fast, and got to our room, where we found this view.

Yes, this was our view the entire trip. Not bad.

Yes, this was our view the entire trip. Not bad.

Apparently, we had the most central, furthest back room on the boat. And you’d think we’d be blown out by engine noise, but that was truly not the case. We had no obstructing view, no pesky neighbors to see all our moves (they had to literally peer around the walls by climbing on the back wall), and the flag was only up when at port. It was incredible.

The rest of the cruise is what you think it would be. Lots of kids, lots of awesome food, lots of handing out of antibacterial wipes. The onboard entertainment was meh, but we’re also not 5 year olds, so that could have something to do with our lack of interest. I was able to workout consistently for the first time in over a year in a gym, which because of Lakeland, was like a Godsend. I actually managed to NOT gain weight, which is a victory for anyone on a cruise ship.

Although it wasn’t super fun for adults sans kids, Disney really outdid themselves. We were on the Fantasy, which was just unbelievable. The size, the space, the decor, from top to bottom, just brilliant. And the on-board tv cracked me up because one of the channels advertised various Disney things on a loop. One of the videos was of the Fantasy when it launched. I knew previously from FB that one of our high school friend’s family was featured in the commercial and his twin girls played a starring role. What I didn’t know was that the whole family was featured in the video on-board, so I got to see Justin, his wife, and twins about 700 times on that channel. It’s like we took the cruise with them.

The weather turned on us the last few days, so I wasn’t able to get as much sun as I would’ve liked. But it was such an incredible experience, to be able to travel with my family, see my nieces light up at all the Disney fun, and hang out with my loved ones. I would recommend it for anyone looking to have fun with their family with childcare they can trust and fun experiences for all ages.

We also did the port adventures, which were just freaking awesome. We rode with dolphins, pet baby sea turtles, drove high speed motor boats, snorkeled in the reef, and had the greatest time. Yes, I left that cruise more in debt than felt comfortable (really, when is it ever comfy) but God, I wouldn’t trade those memories for anything. When I say that I practically wet my pants from laughter driving that motor boat…

I’ll leave you with a few pictures from that amazing week. It turns out I didn’t have as many pix of my twin nieces as I would’ve liked because they had some sort of averse reaction to being on a Disney cruise which left them completely unable to leave their mom’s side without melting down. Sad, but hey, I wasn’t going to push it. A clingy, not crying child is preferable to a crazy, tantrum child any day.

♥, VB